Sinner hon.

2010-06-26T03:10:00.002+08:00

Whenever I hear this song, my heart ache a little.
I know how much I've once hurt you.
And the misunderstand you given me hurt me too.

Never delete that blog.
It reminds me of our pain.
With that pain, we learn to cherish even more.

You just bring the best in me.
I love you.

2010-04-25T02:33:00.007+08:00

"Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss."

Everything never come easy for me.It is the destiny that brought this single soul into two.The cupid of mine has arrowed on this boy whom has always been the one and only in her heart.That time I was not yet 14. That was the time I tasted what love is about. You can raise me high up in the sky yet drop me down to hell.

Through all the worse moments and dramas we been through, we learn & grow. Now it not about me but US. All the selfishness has to put aside, here come in the forgiveness and patience. Our life is fragmented and filled with flaws so is our love. It takes us a endless turns to make us realize how important you are to me, and so am I to you. Hence, letting go of each other has always been tougher than anything else.

Now you've been away, I never stop thinking about you and stop feeling you in my heart. Because I've missed you so so much, I have sleepless nights. Days seem to pass slower than usual.Not in the mood of doing anything beside watching Gossip Girls. I just miss everything when you're around. So come back to me soon kay!

To be honest, I'm kind of disappointed when you say you passed your test. Lot of thoughts running through me and I can't hold back my tears. This one month has been miserable to me, not to say 9 months or even 2 years. I can't be selfish and have you all with me. Back den, pilot has always been your dream and how badly you want to be one. You even take up course to learn to fly. It not cheap either. It will be put to waste if you give up like this. Even though, I know you are more than willing to give it up for me. Just that two years, we bear it through things will more or less stable.In that sense, we got to trust each other even more.

No matter what now, I will support you with your decision. That will be another hardship we have to go through. You just worth every single penny of my love and sacrifices. No one can love me and look me into my eyes with so much sincerity like how you do. So to us, we cheers for our greatest love.*Hug.

2010-04-23T02:52:00.002+08:00

Heyah, time tick tock like in the slowest way. Thank god, I have Gossip Girls to accompany me through these. And I have to say SERENA is damn chili hot! Chuck Bass too(who knows this playboy can be that sweet).

Seriously I have been really rotting away. Purposely I have this job as a photographer coordinator. As common the photographer who given this job to me is like a total tiko. So I given up the 10 buck per hour which the tasks are pretty simple and slack. I feel kind of hard to bear through this month especially when baby is not around. How glad he pass his first test :(..which mean another 9 months to bear. He manage to get through the test again...It gottan to be another 2 years for us. I think it will be the torturous period in my whole entire life. So yeah baby, treat me nicer.

And just recently, I have been spring cleaning my closet.My room is worst than a boy.It is like in a total mess. No wonder I tend to lose things very easily. I use I put anywhere else rather than where it should be. My makeup is thrown every corner of my room even beneath my bed. So I arrange them together, clean it and polish. Just like how guys adore their cars.To my surprise, I have quite amount of makeups.But is never enough for me. HEEEEE.

I guess I'm still far behind from lot of girls.

I don't know I just feel makeup is damn important to we girls(if you don't own that pretty features, you need them!). Don't tell me what natural beauty is the best or whatever shit it is. Yes!Natural beauty is the best, what if your features isn't that stand out. You need those tricks to make it be. And people will kinda say" wah, you look so different when you remove your makeup."
Inside me I will sure OS"KNN. If I look the same I put makeup for what."
Seriously is lame if you said it.
Rarely people can born with that good skin and beautiful features.
If you have it , good for you..
And I have been hooking up with a taiwan makeup artist blog.
Her makeup is just amazing.

Bohemian look.

I love this series of smokey eyes.
NICE RIGHTTT?!

And you gottan to admit makeup does wonder!You can look average..But with the effort you can definitely standout from the crowd. Don't be afraid if it is not going look good on you. Practice make perfect. Take it like an art. Your face is just like the paper, is depend how you going make a difference to your drawing:)...

Whatever it is, we should thank the creation of makeup!

2010-04-17T01:45:00.004+08:00

You're the only being I ever wanted to be with.
You just so special in my eyes.
You hold the key of my heart :)

2010-04-14T01:07:00.002+08:00

Baby, this is all it takes to say.
I love you.
xoxo.

2010-04-11T03:12:00.000+08:00

I so want a shade like this:(...
Thought of getting a RayBan one,
but...
I'm saving bucks:'(.

2010-04-10T13:33:00.001+08:00

Nigel,Seulement vous :)

2010-04-10T02:54:00.004+08:00

Do you still remember?
When we are both oversea at Sun way Lagoon?
We weren't together that time. When I see you, my heart literately jumped and pumped fast. I looked at you when u aren't noticing me. But I sensed, you looking at me from the back of the seat.
I just hoping I have a slight moment with you. Slight moment for?
To tell you how much I been thinking of you & definitely how much I still have a thing for you.
Sadly, I don't get the chance.
But still, I have wings flying when u gave me your jacket in the theater.

Back den, we were so kiddy.

Every single time I hear this song, remind me of this moment...

Love you,bee.

2010-04-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

Hey baby,
I know we having grumpy times,after talking to you I know we going to shoo all these times off. It really been 6 six years(never been easy), we know the best that we always have each other in our heart.After you left to aust, I never stop thinking about you. Just like how I'm 4 years ago till we met again. I unsure is fated or what, there is way too much coincidence that brought us back. So I cherish the chance, so are you. There so much things I wanted to talk to you when you're back. 11 more days uh, so keen to see you.

Love you bee.

2010-04-07T15:11:00.002+08:00

Our relationship is just like the weather.
One moment it is Sunny,
the other moment it starts to rain and get stormy.
Things SHOULD NEVER be this way.

2010-04-04T21:09:00.005+08:00

IF ONLY....
There is always circumstances that we hardly talk on msn for few hours. Just like today, I know the only time I can chat with you is only that period of time. I hardly work well. I keep on checking upon your reply till my phone goes flat. You just won't understand how much I miss you and trying hard to keep myself occupied. I feel so abnormal the day u left to aust. I become so insecure and paranoid. That how my mood goes about. And I apologize for that. I just need you to fork out an addition hour or call me. I just wanna know how you are doing. Hai...

2010-04-03T15:19:00.005+08:00

What wrong with the world seriously?
Many people cannot live up to the vows they take on their wedding day, and they end up in divorce court.Just recently, one of my cousin got sued by his wife. For what? Family violence and sexual harassment. And none is true. She is the one being caught adultery. Out of selfishness and immaturity, she has the cheeks to manipulate stories on court for her child custody and flat. Sometimes, in cases good guy tend to meet the bad woman. And unknowingly, their wives have put on green hat for them.

But who suffers the most at the end?
The child.
This innocent little soul has not yet to know anything or ought to let her know.The truth is way too damaging for her growth. But as she grows she will realize, Daddy isn't Mummy's lover but someone else. Sooner or later, her mum going have kids with this man. For sure, she will feel sense of insecurity and imbalanced. Just like circling her mum, his man and their kids as a family . She totally out of the picture. No one and nothing can compensate this loss.

Furthermore, if she loves her child that much. She wouldn't have done something like this without any consideration. Repeating in messages telling the guy because of her child, things are more complicated to handle. This heartless woman is being too naive. She believed what his affair said to go against my cousin. What is his motive?Everyone knows. Urge her to get her child custody. Why? So that she can get the flat all by herself and he can gain something from it.

Somehow there too much divorcing cases happening within my relatives or even friends. And sadly to say there are more to come for our generations. I'm unsure because we are more westernize? Or things started off way too fast when both are mentally prepared for a family(shotgun)? I understand when you look at your parents, we don't know whether they still love each other or used to having each other(which already happen even on us in gf bf relationship ). It easy to start a relationship but it hard to maintain. Love is just a combination of complexity. There are way too much things to consider not just plain feeling is enough.

For me, I almost there to the door of happiness. But somehow, I'm afraid. I afraid of thinking things too perfect. What if things don't turn out well? I know it going be a huge blow for me. I'm trying to change. I gottan be married one day, no longer mummy or daddy's spoiled daughter. But will be someone's wife and my kids' mom. And things won't be under my control. Like I want it to be like this or that. It never going be me but us...

"When you love a person it does not mean that you would turn blind to all their shortcomings; rather it means you love them despite of it. When two people marry each one comes with certain expectation from their spouse, which when is not forthcoming becomes first a point of frustrating and then the instigation to be revengeful. You want to avoid reasons for divorce, you need to focus on what you can do for your spouse and marriage and allot a lower profile to what you should get from your spouse and marriage."

2010-04-01T12:34:00.002+08:00

Sometimes the world is too sick to live on..
Screw life...

2010-03-28T23:31:00.001+08:00

Once love you, always it will be.

2010-03-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

He quite resembled Aaron Carter.
Main point is....

HE IS CUTE!

2010-03-17T14:55:00.009+08:00

Times have been great all these while.Especially with my baby boy.Thank for the gifts for V'day and the birthday surprise. And my friends out there, you guys are wonderful. I enjoyed my 20th!
And Daddy mummy for the meals.Woolala.

Let's the pictures do the talking...

You're just one sweet man I will ever fall into.

I believed my boy's words that we're going posh restaurant.
Thought we having some sea urchin delicacy.
I dressed formal.
Heavy makeup.

END UP.
at his house.
I got cheated!
So pardon, the contrast with the outwear and the makeup.

Thank pple for wonderful effort!

Prisy. Thank for rushing down! And ur reptile Iphone case!

Sisda.

Thank bee. For the surprise! I appreciate your damn great effort.
and Jason!

Lemonlicious Iphone case.
Love it!

Thank cliques. I love you guys.
I keep it in care and close to my heart :D

See how adorable my friends can get.
Anyway this is from my poly friends.
Those peektures are not sent so I will blog it out next time.

Sentimental moments :)

Just being random,

I step flat a mosquito.
What are the chances!
It just drank somebody blood.
Must be hugo.
I REVENGE IT FOR YOU,GO!

2010-03-16T14:53:00.002+08:00

It takes a lifetime to prove it.

2010-03-09T03:18:00.000+08:00

6 facts to remember.

2010-02-02T21:07:00.004+08:00

1) Relationships are not static. They can, will and must change.

No two people stay the same during the course of a life time. Their needs, wishes, and interests vary. It is unreasonable to expect that relationship partners will grow and change in the same ways, at the same time. It is not necessary for the two of you to always think the same way, enjoy the same activities or people, or be in the same place at the same time. Just because you have different tastes or interests doesn't mean something is going wrong.

For relationships to remain vital it is necessary to have a core of mutual interests, activities and desires, but, it is just as crucial to make room for differences between you. Differences mean you are growing, and will have even more love and understanding to bring to your partner in the long run.

2) Romantic feelings of excitement, intoxication and infatuation necessarily wax and wane.

Many people expect to feel "in love" with their partner on a daily basis. By this they mean having romantic feelings of excitement and infatuation, feeling as though they can't wait to see the person, and miss them if they're gone. However, there is a crucial difference between loving a partner and being "in love". Romantic feelings of excitement, intoxication and infatuation necessarily wax and wane. love is not based upon fluctuating feelings, but upon a solid foundation of mutual respect, consideration and communication. Love is often tested in the fire, and frequently sacrifice is needed. In order to truly love, one must grow as a person. That is what relationships are for - to help you grow in your ability to discover what love really is..

3) Love is not dependency. It's important to be able to stand on your own.

You must be able to be who you are, have friends and activities of your own. Your partner also has to have time alone with friends, interests and private space. Love always includes trust of the other. The less you suffocate and possess him or her, the more they will want to be with you and respect you. From that basis, a lot of love can grow.

4) Being angry doesn't mean you do not love.

Some feel that as soon as they are angry or their partner are angry, love has gone out the door. Of course, if anger goes on for too long, or is not dealt with properly, it certainly can erode the quality of a relationship. But being angry is simply a sign that it is time for good, open, honest, careful communication to take place. When you bottle up your needs and feelings then all that has been hidden will can create anger. But, when you recognize anger, as it arises, and freely discuss the issues causing it, the relationship grows. Take anger as a sign that you are being given an opportunity to communicate and know each other more fully. Let it bring you closer, not further apart.

5) It's crucial to carve out quality time for one another.

It's necessary to carve out special time to be together in a quality way. Living together it's easy to take one another for granted. But just because the person is there physically, does not necessarily mean you're sharing quality time. Children, errands, pressures at work and social obligations can create a whir of activity, but not intimate time between the two of you. Carve out intimate time for the two of you to be alone. Go some place special. Make time to talk and have fun alone. This is a wonderful refresher to every marriage and should be done weekly.

6) Being together for a long time doesn't have to take the magic away.

There is no way to replace a person who you've gone through the years with. The sense of continuity and trust that develops is priceless. As the years pass you know each other better and better, whatever happens you both know there is someone there for you, who understands what you are going through. As your ability to share grows, the burdens of life diminish greatly, and, if you look at the person with grateful eyes, the joys intensify as

PS:Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude. I'm sorry, for raising my voice and smirking at you.I know I have not been a good girlfriend to really understand how you feel.My insensitivity led you feel insecure and hurt. I unsure to mend which corner of the cracks between us. At this sudden moment, I know we both are tired. Just that one more crack, I'm sure it will shatter. Whatever it happens again, I will always and look back knowing I once have a great boyfriend like you. Once I ever fall in love..and so deeply...

2010-01-03T22:13:00.007+08:00

Here come the 2010.
Time ticks pass us like nobody business.
Here we are regretting things we done or should have done.
But on the day of 2010, we gottan live like a hardcore youngster and live no regrets.
Only smile to sleep.Laugh till tears.
Sad to say, I hitting the twenty this year. Same goes to you fellows.HAHAHAs.

I feel old to hit the 2 digit.Sooner or later 3,4,5.... Holy mama.

Anyway, supposedly me and cliques wanted to spend our new year eve at Summer breeze.They specially invited DJ.We thought we could have a wonderful night catching up with each other, since it been months we hang out like this. But is kind of loud that we couldn't catch what each other is talking. And how great it can be. We queued for seats, once sat down it started drizzling and being placed to a table that is so fucking near to the speaker. Bombing us deaf. We could not take it and left.

Where we go?
My house.

We bought beers,Drink,Chat and mending with iphone.
Then end up playing Sparks at 3am.
Even though it isn't a crazy night,but we do catch up.
To my cliques, I cheer to you. Love you guys.

Remember steamboat next week! Loewe!

And to my love.
The moment I cried so hard and the moment I laugh so much is when I'm with you.
Now is 2010. Here comes our 6th years.
I feel I'm the happiest chick now.
With great family and have a great boy like you.
Wrapping me with unconditional love.
Fetch me here and there regardless how late and how far it is.
Thank for bearing my nonsensical and laugh along with it.
And your understanding.

Sorry if I never give you much attention.
You should know, regardless what happen I will still love you.
I won't want to lose someone like you.
Everything happened between us is fated. They make us grew and realize how important we are to each other.

So this song, I dedicate to you.

Jay Sean

(Intro)

Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, down,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down, down
Ooh (ohhh)

(Verse 1)

You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,

(Bridge)

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

(Chorus)

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

(Verse 2)

Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
I’ll take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,

(Chorus)

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

LiL Wayne
(Verse 3)
Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature, ’cause to me she zero degree,
She cold, overfreeze,
I got that girl from overseas,
Now she my miss America,
now can i be her soldier please,
I’m fighting for this girl,
On the battlefield of love,
Don’t it look like baby cupid sending arrows from above,
Don’t you ever leave the side of me,
Indefinitely, not probably,
and honestly im down like the economy,
Yeahhhhhh
(Bridge)

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,

(So why don’t we run away)

(Chorus)

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down

Lub lub you. You own me a kiss.

2009-12-22T01:10:00.002+08:00

Love this little dude to the max.
How adorable he can be.
&
My sticky baby please get well soon.

2009-12-14T21:49:00.016+08:00

"The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all."

My boy is back again with his 1 week break. Each time he book out, is the time when my waist increase by one inch. We have tons of buffet & many many supper feasts. So when you see me, to make me feel better - "Don't comment about my protruding tummy!".

The past week , I been spending more time with him & his family. Going places with his family to look for furniture and tiles for their new house. One day, we spent around 12 hours look for suitable furniture. And his dad bought a sofa, that all of us kids comment that is comfortable and well designed. And so glad for boy to have his own room which is so much spacious.

Due to limited time he has, we plan to get his new year clothes before his next book in to the new unit. So we headed to ION with Moma and sisda.

Canton-i.

Piggy Tau Sa Bao. Cute uh.

Being a moron.LOL.

Sisda's weird drink .
This damn drink cost bloody 8 buck!
Don't taste fantastic either.

Bio-ing for more food.

After lunch, we went ahead to shop. Dear bought himself a jean and bought me a watch for our 6 years anniversary ! We been finding this watch quite long ago which we first saw it at a fashion magazine. He actually planned to buy it from the web, but unsure if the watch fit me.Just by coincidence, we found it at ION. This model has limited pieces available in Singapore and Germany. So, lucky me!

This watch really make my day!
These years down, never been easy for us.
& I'm glad to have you back.
Thank for all the love & understanding.
Love you.
<3>

2009-12-07T21:17:00.003+08:00

My mister book out that early Friday.
Received call from his best buddy that his wife is in labour.
And my dumb mister is so excited over her god-daughter that he left his mobile in the taxi.-.-
Their daughter is effing cute. She is so tiny.
When I hold her in my arms, I feel like having one myself. LOL.
Maybe in 7 more years time.
Well,having a kid is not easy.

My boy stayover my house as usual.
He woke up early in the morning.
Went to the supermarket and cooked breakfast for me.
Thank dear:D.Although you're not getting enough rest in camp, you still make the effort to wake up and make me meal. I'm so touched even though I say ur scramble egg are tasteless.

Looking forward to end of this week!
IT IS WHEN I END ALL MY PAPERS!yipeee.
as usual,

I SCREWED MY PAPER TODAY!

2009-11-24T00:14:00.007+08:00

I'm so afraid of growing up.
I'm sick of all the things that come with growing up.
Take responsibility they say .
Your futures looking up .
So many different ways to live your life these days .

Guess, all I'm worried is the money problem.
Working my ass off.
Looking upon the slip of paper that make me smile at every end of the month.
This smile never last.
Mailbox will be the last in my mind to open it.
It always flooded out with envelops of bills!
What to do, we stay in Singapore.
Everything is all about money.
Even go public toilet, still have to pay.
I never seen other countries charging people for public toilet.

That why Singaporean are sad people.

Having my own family in future, HOLD A HUGE RESPONSIBILITY.
I going be my husband's wife,my kids' mom.
Can't imagine myself in that scenario.
And I have to learn to be one.

I already have a hard time cleaning my room, not to say doing house chores.
Among my sis and I, I use to be the lazy one.
Calling either of us to do the chores, I will vanish within blink.
So dear, don't look upon me.
But I'll try my best. :P

I need to pick up some life skills like cooking!
To me cooking "seem" easy, but when I want to get it done.I need some SOS.(usually is my sis)
Till now, I don't know roughly how much water do I need for my maggie.
It is either tasteless or dried up.

All I can say, I'm a lucky person.
Everything goes smoothly even till the age of 19.
Maybe is really what they call "happy go lucky".
In life, is really what they say "heng or sway".
But we should never neglect of working hard.
which I neglected the most.

So this mid semester test, I shall mug hard.. LOL!

2009-11-22T23:54:00.004+08:00

My mister think I'm fat.
A friend of mine whom hasn't seen me for long think I grow fatter.
My moma say my face grow more meat.

I wore my jean. Pull it as high as I can just to button it up.
I'm really fat now.
I look at my chicken legs,

they fit my jean better. "Tighter" in that sense.
Feel happy about it.

But....

When I bend down, I feel like crying...

2009-11-20T16:26:00.009+08:00

I need a Laptop Pouch!
My lovely Hugo implants huge"holes" to both of my laptop pouches!
I always been finding nice laptop pouches instead of the boring black rectangular kind.
It is not essential to me anymore,I left that few months in school:'(.
But one Laptop pouch make me gaga over it.

IT IS NOT SOME BRANDED STUFF.

But is in vibrant lemonade YELLOW colour!
The design is effing cool!

It is designed with the concept of applying whimsical computer icons!
And.
I absolutely love the colour!
If someone attempt to steal your laptop, you can spot it right away whether it is yours not.

They also have almost the same design for the camera pouch.

Unsure whether this Laptop pouch is launched yet.
Damn! I so going to get you!

2009-11-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

Raining-School Skipped!

I feel so lonely today!
Boy,I miss you so:'(

2009-11-18T19:12:00.006+08:00

Getting sicker for school each day.
I feel that I'm getting lazy and lazier each day.
I woke up & in just 30 mins!
I'm done preparing.(Usually I need an hour or 2 hours for me to prepare.)
You will be thinking what take you so long!

I spent roughly 20 mins to bath,5 mins to put liquid foundation, 20-30 mins on my eyes make up (Like wtf right?I know.),10 sec to put blusher and in between I been walking around searching for clothes and stuffs which is a wastage of another 20-30 mins.

Now?
Bath 20 mins as usual.1 mins eyeliner & 5 mins in deciding what to wear.
I wear tank,short.
SHORT,TANK.almost everyday I can say.
So sian of thinking what to wear.
Summore is tedious to keep pairing those clothes. AND with the effort.Makeup is a must to be on.
Now think back.
Everyone is wearing so shui bian, must as well be like them.At least I can sleep more...

If only I born with a pair of beautiful eyes and nicer skin tone.
All these can save me up lots of time.
I can go school without makeup and won't feel insecure about it.
How great!
I hate my eyes. I feel is distorted :(.
Arghh...
When I have the money, I hope to do something about it.

Without makeup and with.
You see what I mean about my eyes.

Seriously, makeup do wonders!
Sad for guys.
If u are not born with great features,there is nothing u can do about it. Unless you undergo cut or like some ah guas put some makeup.
For us girls.
Single eye lid we can paste it double.(Actually guys can do it too.)
Uneven skin tone, we can thoroughly paint it even.
And falsies!
They really define your eyes which most girls can't live without.

For girls with great skin and eyes.
You are real lucky!

2009-11-05T22:35:00.003+08:00

I kept thinking about us.
We grew up together.
You were a boy when I met you.
Now you are at the stage of becoming a man.
All these while, times have been great.
In the past,I know how sad things can be.
But, I 'm glad to have you back.
Or else I will miss a great guy like you.
A guy that can truly love me with all his heart.
Giving up his dream just to be with me.
You never say a word " tired ",
just to spend your time to the fullest with me.
How anxious you look when I feel unwell.
You look kind of over react but you know ..
every moment like this, my heart is smiling.
And I feel I can have my lifetime depend on you.
I'm your thorns yet your rose.
You never once give up on me.
I promise a forever in return.

And

Our book of story has just begun...

2009-11-04T00:28:00.004+08:00

Love this little dude to the coremax.
Everyone who knows him think he is a comedian.
And Hugo.
Stop peeing out of the aim...

:( 4 more days...

2009-11-02T22:11:00.004+08:00

I felt a huge surge of relief and happiness having you around.
Every slight gesture you made wrapped me love.
If you aren't there, I feel my life miss a part.
That is how much you meant to me.

That boy who loves me more than anything.
I gottan miss you so hard:'(
5 days.

2009-10-25T07:35:00.005+08:00

Now I know how STRESS feel like...

Up early now.. Why?
Every single time I close my eyes I see codes.
FREAKING PROGRAM CODES.
If I unable to provide help in the features in my FYP,
my supervisor may fail me.
How wonderful.
Repeating the 1 year for this fucktard FYP.

I looking through endless website to learn the tutorial.
I don't catch a single balls.
Not a very wise thing I have chosen.
I can't get any help from my groupmate I guess.
I seriously need a programmer to help me out,
and I will more than willing to pay him/her.

God, please save me.
I just left that one step to come to the end of my dip.
I don't feel like screwing it up.

Program?HA.

2009-10-22T12:51:00.017+08:00

"It takes a long time to grow an old friend."

Great to get to meet Cali for the very last minute. We have endless issues to update to each other. It been about 8 years, but still we are keeping in contact regardless where we are.Seriously, I can't wait to go on a vacation with them after my grad.The last time we went oversea was when P6. We went to Beijing for some student exchange programme,that when we bonded even more.

Comes to think about it, is about effort. Effort to call, effort to reply, effort to meet. That how things can last. I lost some but definitely not them:)

2009-10-16T00:06:00.009+08:00

Your girl

She carries your heart. A heart that she can't live without.
Her imperfections become perfect in his eyes.
You have completed her in more ways than you could imagine.
Loving her in every way.
She feels in her heart that their hearts have came to dwell together, as one.
The day they met was fate.
Their lives intertwining was fate.
Too much coincidences brought them together.
Not just once.
But again and again.
She loves you more today than she did yesterday, and she'll love you more tomorrow than she do today.
You said you are the luckiest guy,
but you don't see what she see when she look at you.
To this amazing guy,
She hopes she can be your comfort when you're getting thru the hardest part.
She will safekeep your heart.
Keep it safe and closer.
you are an irreplaceable spirit that will always be a part of her...

2009-10-13T23:57:00.006+08:00

Good day catching up with polymates
On that day,supposedly I'm reluctant to head out cause of the weather. Being the late queen, I'm a hour late again. But still my mates are nice enough to wait for me. I headed to school to opt for a change in my elective module. Is not my luck that day, those slots are taken up. Poor chaiyun wasn't in the luck too. She unable to appeal for a change for her core module class which is crucial to her.So we will just pray hope someone is nice enough to change with her. I understand how it is like when you are forced to put on a mask especially to those who are two headed snake. Coward uses lame sarcasm and somehow think is funny. Try harder. It needs your brain not just your mouth. Or else it just made you plain stupid and childish.

After all the appealing, my mates decided to catch a movie-Sorority Row. Personally feel the plot is not bad. Worth every penny to scare yourself out. Our dear chaiyun cried just at the beginning of the show. She is real timid. She covered her eyes almost through out the whole show. There are so much good movies coming up, can't wait to watch with my botak. Poor boy, need to bear with restrictions and tekan for 2 years. And is damn retard.After a week, he is back for public holiday.He needs to be confined for another 2 weeks. Like making what different! By then, I will be madly missing him.

And Waraku for dinner!

Alex with the Pubic Hair, Lawrence and Chai

I have not seen them for ages since the start of holiday. Even my cliques I never met them for long too. Soon soon. Today is seriously shag. Once I reach home have my dinner, I drop dead like a log.I woke up like 6 plus then need to be in school by 8.30. I been dragging and dragging to prepare till the time I about to leave is already like 8.15. No choice I cabbed down and it costs me a blood. We did won in the competition, but wasn't sure about the positioning. Glad that we were won the 1st position. After the award ceremony and boring talks, we need to set up our booth. People come about asking the same question, replying the same answer. I pity my mate. I just enjoy sitting there or else entertain a little.

Tomorrow will be having my 1st driving lesson. Like FINALLY after so long.Gottan rush back to school again for presentation and booth again. Shag shag.

2009-10-13T01:21:00.005+08:00

I say his hair like pubic.
He make me a hen.
Fucker.LOL.
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But his photoshop skill is not bad. Everything is just nice in place.
HAHA.

2009-10-10T20:30:00.006+08:00

I feel sad.
Why?
Some men have bigger chest than me.

I feel so unfair and handicap. I'm mummy on the bottom but daddy on the top. Basically I'm petite. But I have seen girls that are small sized have reasonably big boobs. It certainly shape up your body with curves. Most Asian girls face problem like this, not just me. Guess in future if I have son, I can lend him my train rail. That save the money. I'm envy of Caucasian, they born with larger melons. Those tits are no kidding. If those two big lumps of cymbals clash your head, get ready to have your head spin. Guys will more than willing being clash. Tinylocks like me are in no usage-"Too small for display."LOL. Is not as though, wanting those boobies to pop out and say "Hi". But with a bigger set, it definitely built up confidence. I admit I wasn't confident for being small. I even swim with bikini only during night time, where there isn't much people.

Actually there is high engineered bra, which really make your boobs visually up one size. So guys, don't get cheated. Happily think that not bad ah, my girlfriend has a boobs size like a grapefruits. Ah ha, when those FFP3 masks taken out...

Those grapefruits will turn from this

to this.

Siew mai.
LOL. My moma always classified my one as that. Actually not so bad lah, at least like a ling rong bao. But nowadays is real common that people under go cut to make themselves look better. Yeah guys will say " Natural is the beauty." Total bull.Come on lah, don't contridict yourself. Appeareance play a important role. A girl that is not so good looking, guys don't give a damn by even taking a glance.

But still I must feel blessed,at least we are born with proper look, hands and legs. And only inflated boobs.Beauty is skin deep, but ugly is to the bone. How true is that.

And I'm missing you.Hope days will pass fast .

2009-10-09T14:38:00.001+08:00

Who say Bullies are the 3rd dumbest dog?
Your dog can never beat this.
This bull is amazing.

2009-10-09T00:26:00.003+08:00

Oh, lover, hold on
'Til I come back again
For these arms are growing tired
And my tales are wearing thin
If you’re patient, I will surprise
And when you wake up, I’ll have come
All the anger will settle down
And we’ll go do all the things we should’ve done
'Cause I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I’ll be here if you will only come back home

Oh, lover, I’m lost
Because the road I’ve chosen beckons me away
Oh, lover, I’ve done you wrong
And now I’m fighting words I never thought I’d say
But I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I’ll forgive you all if you just come back home

Oh, lover, I know
You’ll be out there and be thinking just of me
I will find you down the road
And we’ll return back home to where we’re meant to be
'Cause I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
We’ll be back as soon as we make history

2009-10-07T19:00:00.011+08:00

Time to be a man. A NS man.
He will be soon enlisting in about 30 hours. He shaved his hair like some kind of shaolin . Not as bad as I thought, still lookable. And I love rubbing his head back and forth, the texture just feel so nice & pokey.

For this past 2 weeks, I been spending most of my time with him. We both cherish every single minute. We were supposed to have more time together just because of some misunderstanding and arguments that left unsolved, made us separate for a while. He cherish me more than anything now.

Sometimes I felt sorry, I always been looking upon his bad. Complaining to my friends how unreasonable he was. When the time I feel he done so much for me? and singing praises about him? Every goods he has tend to be disappearing when conflict comes in. I apologize for my immature. Our hearts always been occupied by one another since the past 5 years. I should have known what you really need from me. We chatted with each other heart to heart more often. Seriously just through those conversations, I understand you more. Like why you react in this certain way. Is good to always say things out to your partner regard of anything.You never tell, don't expect them to know.

No matter what, I'm glad to be back with you.No one could matter me like you do.
I love you Nigel.

Last but not least.
My group won competition in FYP. A leecher like me feel ashamed to share those prizes.Haha.

2009-10-04T01:44:00.006+08:00

Happy Moon Cake Fest!
I had a great day with my boy and his family.His dad is a hilarious man who cared damn lot about his family. No question he will always think of events for every occasion. Indeed his family had a great time and those memories are not simply capture by the camera but kept deep inside their heart. So am I , gladly to be part of them once again.His mom prepared boxes of dish to be brought there. Sadly, the weather is not being cooperative. It started drizzling.Hence, we have to get our dinner done at home instead. It not so bad either, enjoying watching the TV, have a few conversations while gulping down hungrily. When the rain stopped,we went to PRP.Hanging lantern on the trees and lighting up candles one by one. This is just so childhood.

Not soon I brought Hugo over with my mom and sis. We walked Hugo around the park, he like panting so hard. So afraid that he would pass out. He is a real clown, when you are in the scene of seeing him sliding down the slide. You will be like us. Burst out of laughter. His action, the way he looks and the way he reacts, never fail to make you happy. Have a good & enjoyable night.

Boy going get his head shines tomorrow. Think he will look exactly like MICKEY MOUSE due to those protruding big ears. Going get a cap for him to keep those ears less apparent. :) Bee enjoys your curry chicken everyday. Then you will appreciate my shit cooking skills. Independent= No more MIMI. Just take great care when you are out there. Don't push yourself too hard when you are in unwell conditions. I will be there at night waiting for your messages. Keep me update.

And Bestie. I kept thinking of you. Keep in contact.

2009-10-02T16:32:00.007+08:00

Randomly looking through those videos.

I found this!

See how small is HUGO, now he is like monster huge.
When I first saw him, I'm so attracted to those eyes.
He has a pair of sexy eyes.
By the way beside him is his sister.
His sister is a very smart girl.
She pick up command very easily.
Unlike HUGO, everything goes around his mood.
He not easy to be bribed.

2009-09-30T15:13:00.002+08:00

Where have you been?

I'm missing you right now...

2009-09-28T22:09:00.010+08:00

Good Sunday!:)

Kranji Organic garden.

Small pups with Fat MAMA HUGO.

Rottweiler looking pup.
Only he has it among the siblings.
Love his two brown spots on the eyebrows area.

SISDA.

Hey pup pup.
:)

Hugo with the boys.
Guess what he doing?
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Happily licking and sucking his "Ice pop" to make himself cool.
He cannot withstand heat at all,he been drooling as he walks.
Bad weather that day.
Even us cannot stand the heat.

Taste good uh?

My cute little fellow:D

US.Enjoying the corns.HOHO.
Now I realize no one can love me like how you do.
Thank for everything.
<3
Had our lunch over there with our specially order wild boar.
THE WEATHER IS SERIOUSLY TERRIBLE.
Effing Hot.
So we decided to bring Hugo for a swim at Farmway 2.

Hugo so reluctantly to swim.
He afraid of being drowned.
Once he being dumped into the pool,since then he had phobia of swimming in that pool.

End

2009-09-21T22:06:00.095+08:00

EuphoricLove...
We started off with too much coincidences,
that you couldn't believe it.

It was the first day of my secondary school and he came with another friend to get my number, not because he wanted to, but because his friend was interested in me. What happened that very exact same night was shocking, he was randomly browsing PVPS yearbook which his younger sister's friend lent her and just when he was about to go to the kitchen, he saw my photo in it. He told his mother that his friend wanted my number and that was when he realised, my mum was a good friend of his mum and we even played together at his house when we were younger.

It was kinda funny the next morning when he told his friends that he and I were actually childhood friend. His friends refused to believe him and even thought he was pulling a prank on them, that was when he came to my class to assure his friends of our 'relationship'.

That was how we started off. We started to sms and chat in msn. We contacted each other on and off, as I would ignored him at times, afraid that I may fall for him.

I had a long and tiring fight with my heart before I finally gave in to fate. 13 Aug 2004 was the date where I finally chose to face the fact that I've fallen for him. That was the day he held my hand, we were in the bus home and I was seating beside him. I'm so terribly shy I ended up looking out of the window throughout the whole journey, don't even dare to hold back.

There was once where both our family had an outing at Pulau Ubin chalet, We sneaked out in the middle of the night, It was thrilling yet sweet. Just to see each other that one time. In front of our parents we acted like we were just friends, but the way we looked at each other just betrayed us in our acting. Every single day I will meet him at the staircase during my breaktime in school.

There is so much good memories and bad one too. Jealousy start to occur so often in him. That when I know he cares about me. Just the way he expressed them got hurtful sometimes. There was even a few times when he broke down and cried on the phone, so did I. We are in love with each other. Just that we were way too immature in handling r/s. A silent break happens den.

Two years had been long for me. I've been waiting. Waiting for a guy, a guy whom always waited for me at the staircase when things goes wrong. Always looking at that same old staircase hoping he will appear one day. When I'm alone, my mind is filled with him. Tears often appear at the corner of my eyes. Coincidentally, I got in the same school as him again. Always hoping that I will get to see him when I boarded the train.

After two years, his mum happened to ask my parents if we wanna go Gu Kok together. That when I met him once agn after so long. My heart skipped a beat when I see him. Pump so hard that I felt like collapsing (no exaggerating). We started talking from there, gone fishing together, got myself horribly burnt and we waited for the sunrise together. That was the first time in my life I saw a shooting stars. And is just the two of us that saw it.

We were back together once again.
We started off good. His parents treated me like his family and my mum doted him like son. We even gone diving together. Helping me carry tank, help me sort out the equipments and he always ensure that I'm safe. He would held me tight in his hands throughout the entire dive just to make sure I dont get drifted away.

With those loves.
I finally got my diving license.

And our Australia trip.

We are just an imperfect couples like anyone else. Whenever conflicts happen, we ended up running away from the problems instead of seating down and talking about how we could compromise one another. That was when things started to get sour as both our tolerance level dipped. I just snapped, got so tired. I gave up like totally, that I don't shed anymore tears.

I love you. Seriously I do.
I know you feel the same way too.
Through this period, I felt it.
You aren't different from the past. You always love me regardless of anything.I don't deny I'm at fault. There is so much misunderstanding in our last quarrel. Been together I should have known you. Known that you need my attention cause sometimes I tend to neglect you. I guess I would prefer to have someone who care so much about me than he don't.

You been on the sideline waiting for me.
Now I'm back to you again.
So now, we going to keep our compromise.
Never to let go again.
Never.

2009-09-15T13:21:00.004+08:00

Nothing I could do to help you.
You'll be leaving same goes to me.
But all I will left with you will be the moments.
Everyone need to be given a chance to love.
But some people just don't give themselves a chance to let other love them.
They fear.
I will be one of them.
Don't be sad because we weren't together, but be glad on how much we gone through.

Hope your pilot dream will come true.
With all my heart I bless you.
Bless your safety, your future, and every.
Maybe few years down we may meet again.

2009-09-14T02:32:00.002+08:00

What can I expect for the third?

2009-09-13T21:56:00.013+08:00

SISTA 'S 21 BIRTHDAY.

Wish you a very sweet 21st Bday.
Lao jie hope you get slimer and get a boyf soon.
LOL

I'm her makeup artist that day.
That what she told me when I'm doing her makeup.
G:"Mei ah, I think you should go be a makeup artist. Your make up skills not bad."
Me:"Aiyah, I cannot one lah."
Next minute. I merge all the mascara over her nose and face.
I laughing off my ass when I look at her.
She look in the mirror and..
G:"Wahlau,why like that. No wonder you say you cannot."
Lol.
But I still make her look good..

My family photo.
I love them :]muacchh.

First time she hug me!
LOL.

Why are we sisters?
Never a part of us look the same.
Neither our characters.

Lol.

Tell you a secret.
*I'm my mum secret affair's child.

2009-09-11T17:33:00.014+08:00

Hugo smell yum yum now.
I just brought him to a nearby pet shop for grooming.
He smell nicer than anyone now.
Can't help but to sniff and kiss him.
LOL.

Oh yeah. I finally found a web that can get a loafer I want for long.

Personally I prefer the blue white.
Kind of common for the whole blue.
36 bucks.
Oh my, where to dig money again..

And this checkered blouse I found on the web. I like the contrast of the colors.
That two! Think red is better. Damn. I should cut down. I been staying home like a week. Cause I'm so so broke. But when I 'm home ,only THIS can keep me occupied. Is so fuck damn tempting. Gosh. I need a loan!

2009-09-10T00:07:00.004+08:00

If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I'm unreal
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel

Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything

Everything...

Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

Everything will be alright
If you just stay the night
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

I want to be your love, love, love

"Somehow all I need a eraser all the long.
I need a erase.
Erase and I be happier.
All I wanted is to forget you.
I can't live the same world as u live.
I leaving and you stay."

"I'm at fault.
Just me.
Sorry guys.
I know is a ruin.
I haven't been a cooperative great friend.
Blame me who need to be blamed ."

"To one I do really upset so much.
I do hope my nonexistent do make u feel better.
Wasn't because you aren't great.
Because I don't worth your greatness.
I'm selfish and you're selfless.
That will hurt you even more.
So I walked away.
Leave you with another key of happiness."

"I been talking to him days and nights.
He don't speak but look me with those eyes.
Make me feel so okay.
At least I'm not really alone.
Laying on my thigh.
I feel love."

"Keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right."

2009-09-08T12:52:00.023+08:00

I want those shoes badly! :(

For the casual

Fred Perry Coxson Canvas

Vans Originals

Leather Lo Pro

And this heel!

Oh mama.. ...

2009-09-08T01:38:00.008+08:00

MESSY EMOTIONS

Sometimes I feel I need you,
yet I don't have the strength to sustain.
I cry so much for the past,
tears almost flood my wounds.
Have you know it at that moment?
You don't.
I'm always left alone whatever occurs between us.
I give my whole world to you.
I can't help it but feel that you take it as a trash.
Trash.
Left in the bin unattended.
Nothing just Silence and wait.

Why?
You question me for being heartless at times.
You should rebounce that to yourself.
But I do forgive you at this point of time.
I couldn't hate you, for losing all the faith I left.
My heart is temporary anesthetized.

2009-09-07T23:00:00.013+08:00

Hahaha. My Captain Jack Sparrow!
He look absolute hilarious in anything.
♥ you boy.

2009-09-07T00:36:00.009+08:00

02.09.09

Had a B'day celebration for our this two boys .
Even though it don't turn out real good, but hope you guys do enjoyed.
Happy 19th. Love you boys.

03.09.09

Loewe had been a grumpy old man that day. So I decide to catch a movie with him to stop his grumpyness. Bth you. We had our dinner at our all time Fav- SUBWAY before our movie starts.
HAHA. And Loewe is impressive with my BIG appetite. After I ate the meal set of subway, I still feel unfilled. Then I head to eat a packet of chicken cuttle. YET STILL HUNGRY. I been like this for few days. Even my moma couldn't stand it. Maybe of my oncoming period. Talking about food now. I feel I could eat a horse.

District 9.
I can say I enjoy it. Very indifferent plot. Total worth it.

04.09.09
This day, I went out with my bestie again to get his leather jacket. But is a disappointment due to the material. Can see he want it badly. I had my shopping done too. Usual me. I spent all my money on that day. Left a dollar in bank owned Loewe 12 buck. My sis present cost me a bomb. But never mind since is her 21 big day. She been very nice as a sister too. Always cook for me when I say I'm hungry. Yeah food again. LOL. Seriously she cook great maggie. I tried to cook once myself. It tastes total shit. Like water? Think in future my kids will born to be like Africa refugee.And I ended my days with loots. So bloody happy.

2009-09-05T21:13:00.003+08:00

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific
And you might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to try to live my life

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well, I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure
I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talked to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside had finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'd soon blow up

And I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together I would watch me fall apart

And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place try to live my life

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been
Cause who I've been only ever made me

2009-08-31T15:33:00.005+08:00

2009-08-26T00:30:00.008+08:00

Enrique:
Go ahead just leave
Can’t hold you, you’re free
You take all these things
if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams’
cause you meant the world
so did I deserve to be left and hurt
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You think I don’t know you’re out of control
And then I’m finding all of this from my boys
Girl you said I’m cold, you say it ain’t so,
you already know I’m not attached to materials
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Chorus:
I give it all up, but i’m taking back my love,
I’m taking back my love,i’m taking back my love,
I’ve given you too much,but i’m taking back my love,
I’m taking back my love, my love, my love, my love, my love.
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Ciara:
What did I do to give us the cue
I’m just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all it’s from me
Go head, keep your keys, that’s not what I need from you
You think that you know (Enrique:I do)
You’ve made yourself cold (Enrique:oh yeah),
How could you believe them over me, I’m your girl
You’re out of control (Enrique:so what?),
How could you let go (Enrique:oh yeah)
Don’t you know I’m not attached to materials
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Chorus:
I give it all up, but i’m taking back my love,
I’m taking back my love,i’m taking back my love,
I’ve given you too much,but i’m taking back my love,
I’m taking back my love, my love, my love, my love, my love
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Enrique:
So all this love I give you, take it away
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Ciara:
You think material’s the reason I came
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Enrique:
If I had nothing what you want me to say
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Ciara:
You take your money take it all away

After so long,

"You fail me. Giving me reasons not to believe. I once cried so much wanting you back, yet you push me off so far. So far that is hard for me to return to you. Not because I left you. But you make me to."

You wish upon the shooting stars.
Now they are all dead.

2009-08-25T21:24:00.012+08:00

Having my teeth whitening tray on.

This is the 2nd day of the procedure.
It takes like 14 days to see the result.
It better be at least whiter. I dump 500 buck just for this.
Guess people who has braces on will experience stained tooth after being removed.
Even though I'm obsess in brushing, it still turn yellow.
I never been diligent on anything beside brushing teeth.
People who know me know that.LOL.

Oh yeah. I almost lost HUGO this morning. Scare the hell out of me.
My dad brought him down for his poo poo session. They headed to next block to dump his poo. When my dad turn to throw it, this HUGO happily enter the lift assuming that this is the same block we living. My dad turn back and he is gone with the lift! My dad tried to button down both lift, both were empty. My dad called my Moma to seek for him too. I was sleeping that time. My Moma rushed in my room and said HUGO is missing. I jumped off my bed. Put on my chest shield and headed down immediately. It really give me a damn shock. So worry he got carried away. Think few more months I will be less worry. He going to be too fat to be carried away. LOL. After 10 min, he take the lift down to level 1 again. Happily shaking his buttock. Think people press it for him. Is real lucky man. Give us a sweat. Or else I will cry to death worse than losing a boyf.

"Why you looking at me like this?"
" JUST GIVE ME MY DAMN TRAFFIC-LIGHT ICE CREAM!"*lick lick.

2009-08-25T00:04:00.010+08:00

MUGGING MAKE ME PUKE.
I missed two meals. Feeling hungry. Gulping a cup of noodle. Exam exam focus focus focus~. Time to enjoy after that. Yahhhhness!

And dear Loewe spelled my name wrongly all the long for freaking 6 years!
THE CARDS YOU GIVEN ME CAN BE A PROVE!

2009-08-23T18:38:00.018+08:00

He such a baby.
He is just my happy pill. Last night, I got screwed by my Moma for being home late and not picking up calls. She got so paranoid and bombarded my phone like 11 calls. Don't blame her, I know she just worried even though she yelled at me. Being so moody, my little boy just enter my room and lay beside me on the bed. He slept with me last night instead of the living room. But he is a real noisy sleeper. Snoring louder than I do. When the thunder strike, he jumped up and stepped me on my chest. Giving that gong gong face thought what's going on. I hugged him tight and put him back to sleep. He just like a baby and slept on my tummy. Cute boy isn't it. So love him. No men can give loyality like a dog does. That why I love him more than anything.

And yeah today there is one lady pissed me off. Just a fucking retard.I'm leashing Hugo, he just being friendly and go sniffing on this lady's dog. This asshole lady said this to my dog."Hey, this not your lunch."Fucking hell right?!Think what my dog cannot differentiate what dog and food isit? I think she the one dumb in the head. And your dog 5k so what. What so great to hao lian about. Just look like a damn furry ball, jumping like a rabbit. Hugo can just rid off the head of that rabbit-looking dog. Nb. When one ang mo comes touching that freaking rabbit, that what she said again:"Don't let my dog lick your hand.." Fucking hell. Like what big shot. Hugo still cuter than that a 10000000 times... FUCKTARD.

2009-08-22T20:45:00.011+08:00

What wrong with me?
I'm just so wrong at the right beginning. Hurting people I not suppose to. I guess I have lose faith in myself. So stuck. I can't pull myself out of there. Head is running around with thoughts. Confusion strike. What do I really want? What wrong? What you doing? I been hiding at home, don't feel like doing anything.Picking up books then put it down the next minute and headed back to bed. Feeling so exhausted. Emotional. Blah blah blah.

2009-08-14T15:08:00.007+08:00

Spot the different.
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For those noobs who can't spot.
Yeah. FINALLY I GOT MY BRACES REMOVE.
But I think I look better with braces on than now.
Not that nice or straight.
Quite disappointed with it.
And I need get a whitening.
That going cost me like 500!
Screwed.
It worth than living with a yellow pair of tooth.

For those who will miss how I look with braces.
Here it is.

WAHAHAHA
PARDON IF I LOOK FUKING DIFF WITHOUT MAKEUP.
:D

2009-08-13T21:08:00.004+08:00

Every tears I had in my eyes, show how hard I been trying.
So hard I mean.

I shouldn't have asked you to trust me.

When I can't even know what I want now.
I know it is hurting you.
I lost faith in love.
Not your fault , you been great.
Problems are in me.

I'm lost.
Just wanna be alone .

2009-08-12T22:29:00.002+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

2009-08-08T01:03:00.003+08:00

To that dear friend,

“A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.”

I sense everything you feeling.
I sense that drift.
I feel the coldness in your messages.
I unsure what wrong.

You don't want lose me as a friend.
So do I.
Just hope things going be okay.
No one knew me how u knew me.
I can sense everything in you.
Maybe that make us a soul mate.

2009-08-06T18:52:00.002+08:00

All you left is the tracks of tears.

2009-08-04T11:03:00.004+08:00

If I'm lost for a day, try to find me.

If I don't come back,then I won't look behind
me..

All the things I thought was so easy, just got harder and harder each day.

2009-07-31T18:45:00.004+08:00

TODAY IS A DAMN DAY. I woke up at 6.30 manage to reach school at 8. Thank god. He gives me a seat in train.Or else you going see a dead corpse laying on the floor. So damn shag. How I wish beside is a wall or my boy that I can lean. I so afraid to doze off. I so afraid that I might lean on the bangalah.LOL. Just as I finished my presentation with me fooling with cocks. I headed home immediately.

Soon as I reached home,I saw my parents and HUGO heading out. So I tagged along for breakfast.Everyone are looking at him.One noodle stall auntie still came over to ask us for permission to touch him.He just so adorable. He is a AHFAT. Damn pui now. I hardly can carry him for long now.

When I reached home, I laid on bed and dozed off straightaway. Yeah I'm a insane sleeper. I woke up, I was like looking around for Hugo. But forget he had gone to the Vet. I called my mum ask whether he okay already. What time they coming back?My moma ask me why. I just randomly say I wanna eat. Actual fact that I want see HUGO. hahas. I'm insanely in love with my dog. Everyday I woke up, all I want to see is HUGO. lol.And everytime I come back I will definitely ring the bell , he will without fail ans the door. Shaking his head left and right repeatly. And keep raise his feet to give you a Hi-5. Aww. That why I love heading home.

LOL.

2009-07-28T16:07:00.002+08:00

The Greatest Irony of Love

Loving the right person at the wrong time,
having the wrong person when the time is right,
and finding out you love someone right after
that person walks out of your life.

And sometimes,
you think you’re already over a person,
but when you see them smile at you,
you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending
to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing
that they will never be yours again.

For some, they think letting go is one way
of expressing how much they love that person.
In my opinion, some are afraid to see the only one they love,
being held by someone else.

Most relationships tend to fail
not because of the absence of love.
Love is always present.
It’s just that one was being loved too much,
and the other was being loved too little.

As we all know,
the heart is the center of the body,
but it beats on the left.
Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right.

Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love,
to only discover that, for them, we are just passing time-
while the one who truly loves us remains
either a friend or a stranger.

So, here’s a piece of advice:

Let go when you’re hurting too much.
Give up when love isn’t enough.
And move on when things are not like before.
For sure, there is someone out there,
who will love you even more.

All these do make a sense.I came across it from Loewe's bloggy.
"What love?"
I have no freaking idea till now.
There is no particular formula , guiding or logic to follow & make things right.
Why things start to collapse & fade?
Human are made in a way that we take things for granted.
We can't stop it from happening , but to forgive.
Everyone need forgiveness.
With my strength, I made it.

Ps: You're forgiven..But I getting hold on of what I need to cherish.It never gottan be the same.Why not give both a chance & let go.You'll find the right one but that one isn't me. My heart can't fight for you anymore. Is been taken up...

2009-07-26T17:02:00.004+08:00

WATCH THIS.
DEFINITELY TEAR YOU.
LISTEN TO WHAT HE SAYS BEFORE U WANNA GIVE UP.
*GET READY UR TISSUE!

2009-07-26T12:36:00.005+08:00

Getting sentimental
which so not like me...

Hugo is been sick for days,but not really damn sick. Getting better. This week we brought him to the vet like 3 times!oh mind.Just now with he reached home, he came pushing my door and straight away laid on the floor when I'm still sleeping.Looking so exhausted due to 3 jets. Poor boy. Kinda ache my heart.If you have a dog, you will understand how I feel.I'm always so scare he got sick and all. One of my friend's dog pass away few years ago because of lung blockage. She cries everyday like continous 3 months. Her dad has no choice but to replace the other one for her. But nothing can replace the old one. So yeah.

My dad told me the Veterinary clinic's receptionist said that Hugo is the superstar in the clinic.LOL. Everyone know him in there.They always come over to play with him instead of others.Think basically he visits the clinic often, his notorious, and his cuteness. He is really a bad boy. He tried to bluff the vet that he swallow the pill by slotting it at the side of his mouth and spit it out. And there is four vets handling him! He so reluctant to swallow the pill but no choice to use some device to make him do it. All the vets commented that he is very smart but damn mischievous. LOL.After heading out, he got so mad at them. When they tried to call his name and sayang him, he turns away.Si bei hua dan.

You don't know how naughty he can be.See these u will know..

When I call his name and he never repy.
See where he quietly hide...
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Seeee what he done to my closet!!
*Going get smacked.

But still.. He is a great dog!Never fail to make us laugh.Every single morning , first thing he come out from his cage . He will come to my room,check whether I'm awake. When I'm not there, he will quietly sat there or look for me.I just love him so much. I think I will love him more than my boyf. Wahaha.Opps. Through these times after the breakup, he brighten my days and make me smile. I feel so much happier now. Sigh. One sad thing is that they don't live long.

WHAT HEALTH PROBLEMS DOES THE BULLDOG HAVE,
AND HOW LONG DO THEY LIVE?

""Every breed has health problems that are specific to that breed. The Bulldog can have eye problems, some conditions to be aware of are: "Cherry eye" (A prolapsed tear gland), "Entropian"(A rolling of the eyelid causing lashes to rub against the surface of the eye) or "Distichiasis" ( Extra eyelashes). These conditions are surgically correctable and are considered "Minor" surgery. Problems related to the air way are also occasionally encountered in the breed.Your breeder can give you more information about health issues. we always say the one bad thing about a Bulldog is that they don't live long enough. we would all like them to live forever, but in reality the average life span for a Bulldog is about 8 to 10 years.

Yeah just 8 to 10 years but they suffers lot when they are old.WHY CAN'T DOGS LIVE LONGER!I think if he is gone, my moma going be effing sad. She damn adore him. Play with him everyday, feed him eat "summore with spoon!",bring him go walk and sayang him.See how lucky can he be.My moma used to hate dogs because she got bitten before. How funny.But the way she talk to him like talking to her son! Wah lau. Talk to me also not so gentle. Kns!haha.Soon,I shall keep a personal diary for Hugo.Noting down every silly things he does, how much he grown,what commends he learn and manyyy.If he is gone one day, at least I have the memories noted down. I really got bad memory. I think I suffer from 老人痴呆.I forget things easily. People who knows me will know.Many things I done in the past I tend to forget.But I never bother to kept a diary.Sometimes forget easy,isn't a bad thing. At least I live happier:)If I suffer from Alzheimer. Don't be surprise.LOL.

I love you,HUGOBOY.
Stay well for me:)

*Ended.*

2009-07-25T14:57:00.003+08:00

EFFING SAD RIGHT NOW.
I'M SUPERLY BROKE.
YET ALL THE ONLINE SHOPPING IS TEMPTING AND DRIVING ME CRAZYZ!
HANIE,STOP!!

2009-07-25T00:45:00.005+08:00

A GIRL THAT MAKE ME GAGAA OVER HER.
NOT JUST THE GUYS..
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SHE IS LIKE THE GODDNESS.
Absolutely HOT perfect body!
Especially that pairs of BOOBS.
That blue eyes that electrify with Deadly voltage.
and
She has a cute thumbs!

HAHAHAS. LIKE HALF OF MINE.
I can't wait to see her new movie!
"JENNIFER'S Body"

5 WORDS:
"SHE JUST SO FUKING HOT!"

2009-07-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

FREAKING HILARIOUS!OH GOD!

2009-07-21T11:08:00.003+08:00

Hugo kinda falling sick.Sore eyes and Lao sai.
POORBOY.
In the early morning LIKE 5 AM, he manage to escape out of his cage.
He came over use his head to push my door.
My door is kinda spoil , it is very easy to be push open.
He ran to me, jumping upon my bed asking me to wake up.
But it scare me to hell.
I'm like "why the hell there is a dog doing on my bed!",
I kind of freak out.I'm too beat down at the moment.
I walk out of the room, he followed.
When he want you to sayang, he will keep on doing the Hi5 sign to you.
Then he will flip to his back want you to scratch his tummy.
Guess he want a little comfort cause he feeling sick.
Lao sai everywhere.
Poor moma has to clean it up.

Dear baby boy, stay well. Please let me sleep. Don't every morning come over my room to wake me up like a alarm clock.

Loveyou.
X0X0X0

2009-07-18T12:08:00.004+08:00

盧廣仲 LOOK A LIKE!

WAHAHAHA!
MY DEAR BESTIE YOU LOOK LIKE HIM MAN!
盧廣仲 is quite a unique singer.
As in his composing,his style and singing.
AND HE CAN DO DOLPHIN VOICE OMG!

He is humorous and cute in a way!
hoho!

2009-07-17T10:53:00.002+08:00

I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)

The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

In another life, in another life

In another life ...

2009-07-15T09:47:00.002+08:00

HUGO IS DEAD! HE DESTROY MY GUCCI SPEC.
WITH ALL THE SCRATCHES AND BITE MARKS!
I GOING TO KAJIAO HIM TO HELL WHEN HE WANTS TO SLEEP.
AHHH FUCK!

2009-07-14T18:54:00.010+08:00

Today I retardly buy a Nugget meal costs me $5.45.
I never touch a single bit.
Just to sit at the Mac and pretend that I've gone to school.
Yeah I skipped school today.
=( Feel so damn guilty.

Just last Sat, I had a effing great time with my classmates I've known this year. They are all pretty nice people I can say. The birthday girl is the nicest gal I ever met in my whole 2 years plus of poly.She is unselfish and thoughtful. I still remember that I was away from school a week for a holiday. Even I don't know her at all, she still printed lecture notes for me.Unlikely some people. Mst period she will come forward to ask whether I need papers and she will print them all nicely for me.I appreciate that a lot.Her selfless is her real beauty.This is perhaps why her friends love her=D.

So we set up a little SURPRISE for her.

That Chaiyun.I like her too. She one of the nice girl.
& she lives at Pasir ris.
Finally I found a friend in my course that lives as FARRR as I do.
She always longban me with her retro bike.

Boonkeng. "卖鱼的"translate in english is Sell-fish.
I always ask him question and he always refuse to tell me anything.
One time I asked him a question..this is how he reply me.
ME:"Oi Boon.what is 296E module? The module is what?"
Boon:"Is a subject."
ME:*thinking
ME:"WTF LA BOON KENG!SERIOUS LEH!"
*Is actually a name for the our Prac equipment.

That Lawrence.The gay & the driver.
He is as crappy as Boon too.

In progress of decorating the card.
Irene in black. Maybe some of u guys know her.
LOL.

LOL. They claim they are couple.

She is petite but really strong. She can even carry guys.

My turn.
Recently gain weight that is why u see her vein going to pop out of her neck.

Don't know wtf I doing.

Lawrence RIP.

Finally a decent shot.

Birthday girl. Suz

She got touched.
She don't know we came to celebrate for her.

Chaiyun's eye candy.
He is kinda shy when we disturb him.

Soon after the celebration at Settler.
We headed to VIVO for our MIDNIGHT ACTIVITY!

Pretty unique plot.
Kinda love it.

HEADED HOME AFTER THAT!
AND IS SHAGNESS.

2009-07-12T22:28:00.005+08:00

Love without talking.
Is pretty awesome to know someone like this.
Simple signs and witting speaks what they need.
But there is always a need FOR RESTOCKING OF PAPERS.
If it is me, I'll be like him too.
So keen to work everyday.
Hahahas.

Who say Bullies aren't adorable?

2009-07-11T00:07:00.016+08:00

HUGO is a good life dog.

He sleep eat shit.AND BITES EVERYTHING HE CAN.
He eat 3 to 4 meals a day,
treats are rewarded too.
Resulting him to become a MEATBALL.

He is a gentle dog.
But only bite when you took his toys or barang barang out of his little red bed which we called
"His STOREROOM"
If you need a bleed,"Try it den."
I suspect he is a Kalanguni.
Each and everytime I peek into his storeroom,
there are pens, my hairbands, bottles, scrub(clothing), scooper, boxes, rotten apple and even receipts.
Everything that he claims is his, he will put it all inside.
One day, I saw he attempt to pull his skateboard up the little hall we have,
& placed it..you should know his storeroom.

I love to get him annoyed.
He look superbly adorable.
Hey baby, not that I want to kajiaojiao you.
You are just so damn hilarious.
He never failed to amuse us.
You are not a dog but a CLOWN.
He just so damn cute, that I can't help it to give him a sayang hug.

Okay, enough of the introduction.
Here come his Hot Spicy Juicy photos.
After seeing it,
PLEASE DON'T KIDNAP HIM.
Sleepyhead.
Kajiaoing him
"Let me sleep please!"
His ancestor and him

ZzZz*snoring.
All bullies snore because of his flat nose and narrow air passage.
His pawpaw.

"Wo mei mei ma?"
Yeah this is the hairband he stole!

Loewe going to kill me yeah.
That a gift from him.
But HUGO love this lill ham.

In progress of ran sacking my room

Kua lanjiao.

Just the day before, Prisy came over to see HUGO.
She say she is convinced that bulldogs are cute!
You see,
the first reaction people know I want to keep a bull
"Huh, why of all bulldogs?So ugly!"
Which totally not true.

"I'm getting ready to gai gai!"

Me and HUGO BOY.

Prisy and the Fat Face.

Training him to walk with two leggies.

He chose to poo just right in the middle intersection.
Li hai ah.
And I've to KIOSAI for you.

His cool tee.

Hi5!

This is EPIC.Look so hilarious ! Like shock of his life.

When the ancestor is there, he wun move a single bit.
Last of all.
His trademark "Batman pose"
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Hahahahaha. I'M EVIL.

HUGO, you brought so much joy and laughter to us.
We love you boy.
XOXOXO.

2009-07-03T21:19:00.001+08:00

WARNING DON'T BE SHOCK!

2009-06-29T19:53:00.003+08:00

Hey I'm back with this lill fellow!

Will update soon...

2009-06-19T20:52:00.003+08:00

My heart relive.
I've been good this period for time. But study has not be productive. I'M DEADMEAT. Just that day, I went see HUGO before I fly off. I've missed him badly. How I wish I didn't go to Japan and take care of my little dar. He has grown so fast. Each 2 days I seen him. He look different but definitely cuter. I brought him out of his little cage to play. He seem so energetic.Hopping up and down the weight scale.When he is tired, this cute baby just laid down like a carpet.HUGO, I will bring you back soon den.

HUGO BOY.

Mummy, you taking picture of me?

Everytime he in cage. You say "Baobao" he will lift up his hand gently like giving you Hi5.=)

Stan & sleepy HUGO

HUGO:"Bth I want sleep le. Goodnight PPLE!"

2009-06-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

Somehow hate make one forget faster.

2009-06-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

THIS KINDA AMUSE ME.
MAKE ME GOES"WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?"LOL.
But but the guys are kinda goood looking.heees..o^.^o

2009-06-04T21:32:00.004+08:00

Holiday is coming!
Oh man, I screwed up my lab today.
Pretty much because I didn't slept the day before.
Damn chui.
Gottan start studying=(..

I feel so effing upset now. I'm suppose to pick my bull today. But the owner not willingly or don't bear to sell it to pet shop.So yeah, we gottan find other breeder which is quite rare. That speaks why Bulldog are ex. Yeah everyone will like, why of all choose a bulldog? So ugly. But whatever, to me they just so amusing and adorable. They are not as dumb as you think. Dogs just need good training. Like why we need education.

So just hope.
Bullies rock.

WE SNORE!LOL

2009-06-02T20:35:00.004+08:00

Her mature dancesteps will impress you.
Aww. Such cute lill thing.
Feel like hugggingg her and kisss.
("Look at her expression!")

2009-05-29T23:27:00.004+08:00

Everyday (day), every night (night)
I wanna see you baby, staying by my side
I'm going down on my, on my knees for you
For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe Ill do it
If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes?
No matter what happens, I can't let you go
You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt you
I wanna be all the world to you

I've not the faintest idea, why aren't you talking to me
I'm trying be the perfect girl, you always want me to be
I'm accustomed to you; you're a part of my life
Everything I told you honey, Ive nothing to hide
You're my lil angel, you're my lil star
Im still waiting every hour; you're so close to my heart
All my life Ive been waiting, for one moment in time
Were together I adore you, I so adore your sweet smile
Boy, I don't give a damn about what somebody told you
I will ever be here because baby I love you
If the worse comes to the worst, I'm gonna hold you
I feel you're far from believing me
We walked through the world, where nobody has been before
Turn back the hands of time, open every door
I swear I will allay your doubts and show I love you more
To retrieve your affinity

Would you look into my eyes, put me out of my misery
I have never told lies; I hope that you come back to me
I want to spend my time in loving you forever
No matter what happens, we must stick together
Come on trust my words; give me your heart back again
Kiss my lips, touch my hand, give me a second chance
My heart is pumping; have feeling that Ive never felt,
But if I'm allowed to be with you, the love is coming to my world
So far as I remember you was perfectly happy
To find someone like me, in a world full of traffic
Ill fulfill your dreams; its not only a taffy
You're the only one for me
We walked through the world, where nobody has been before
Turn back the hands of time, open every door
I swear I will allay your doubts and show I love you more

To retrieve your affinity
Every day, day, day, day
Every night, night, night, night
Every day, day, day, day
Every night, night, night, night
I wanna see you baby (every day, day, day, day)
Staying by my side
Every day, day, day, day
Every night, night, night, night
Every day, day, day, day
Every night, night, night, night
I'm accustomed to you