Monday, September 21, 2009 10:06 PM
EuphoricLove...
We started off with too much coincidences,
that you couldn't believe it.
We started off with too much coincidences,
that you couldn't believe it.
It was the first day of my secondary school and he came with another friend to get my number, not because he wanted to, but because his friend was interested in me. What happened that very exact same night was shocking, he was randomly browsing PVPS yearbook which his younger sister's friend lent her and just when he was about to go to the kitchen, he saw my photo in it. He told his mother that his friend wanted my number and that was when he realised, my mum was a good friend of his mum and we even played together at his house when we were younger.
It was kinda funny the next morning when he told his friends that he and I were actually childhood friend. His friends refused to believe him and even thought he was pulling a prank on them, that was when he came to my class to assure his friends of our 'relationship'.
That was how we started off. We started to sms and chat in msn. We contacted each other on and off, as I would ignored him at times, afraid that I may fall for him.
I had a long and tiring fight with my heart before I finally gave in to fate. 13 Aug 2004 was the date where I finally chose to face the fact that I've fallen for him. That was the day he held my hand, we were in the bus home and I was seating beside him. I'm so terribly shy I ended up looking out of the window throughout the whole journey, don't even dare to hold back.
There was once where both our family had an outing at Pulau Ubin chalet, We sneaked out in the middle of the night, It was thrilling yet sweet. Just to see each other that one time. In front of our parents we acted like we were just friends, but the way we looked at each other just betrayed us in our acting. Every single day I will meet him at the staircase during my breaktime in school.
There is so much good memories and bad one too. Jealousy start to occur so often in him. That when I know he cares about me. Just the way he expressed them got hurtful sometimes. There was even a few times when he broke down and cried on the phone, so did I. We are in love with each other. Just that we were way too immature in handling r/s. A silent break happens den.
Two years had been long for me. I've been waiting. Waiting for a guy, a guy whom always waited for me at the staircase when things goes wrong. Always looking at that same old staircase hoping he will appear one day. When I'm alone, my mind is filled with him. Tears often appear at the corner of my eyes. Coincidentally, I got in the same school as him again. Always hoping that I will get to see him when I boarded the train.
After two years, his mum happened to ask my parents if we wanna go Gu Kok together. That when I met him once agn after so long. My heart skipped a beat when I see him. Pump so hard that I felt like collapsing (no exaggerating). We started talking from there, gone fishing together, got myself horribly burnt and we waited for the sunrise together. That was the first time in my life I saw a shooting stars. And is just the two of us that saw it.
We were back together once again.
We started off good. His parents treated me like his family and my mum doted him like son. We even gone diving together. Helping me carry tank, help me sort out the equipments and he always ensure that I'm safe. He would held me tight in his hands throughout the entire dive just to make sure I dont get drifted away.
With those loves.
I finally got my diving license.
And our Australia trip.
We are just an imperfect couples like anyone else. Whenever conflicts happen, we ended up running away from the problems instead of seating down and talking about how we could compromise one another. That was when things started to get sour as both our tolerance level dipped. I just snapped, got so tired. I gave up like totally, that I don't shed anymore tears.
I love you. Seriously I do.
I know you feel the same way too.
Through this period, I felt it.
You aren't different from the past. You always love me regardless of anything.I don't deny I'm at fault. There is so much misunderstanding in our last quarrel. Been together I should have known you. Known that you need my attention cause sometimes I tend to neglect you. I guess I would prefer to have someone who care so much about me than he don't.
You been on the sideline waiting for me.
Now I'm back to you again.
So now, we going to keep our compromise.
Never to let go again.
Never.
It was kinda funny the next morning when he told his friends that he and I were actually childhood friend. His friends refused to believe him and even thought he was pulling a prank on them, that was when he came to my class to assure his friends of our 'relationship'.
That was how we started off. We started to sms and chat in msn. We contacted each other on and off, as I would ignored him at times, afraid that I may fall for him.
I had a long and tiring fight with my heart before I finally gave in to fate. 13 Aug 2004 was the date where I finally chose to face the fact that I've fallen for him. That was the day he held my hand, we were in the bus home and I was seating beside him. I'm so terribly shy I ended up looking out of the window throughout the whole journey, don't even dare to hold back.
There was once where both our family had an outing at Pulau Ubin chalet, We sneaked out in the middle of the night, It was thrilling yet sweet. Just to see each other that one time. In front of our parents we acted like we were just friends, but the way we looked at each other just betrayed us in our acting. Every single day I will meet him at the staircase during my breaktime in school.
There is so much good memories and bad one too. Jealousy start to occur so often in him. That when I know he cares about me. Just the way he expressed them got hurtful sometimes. There was even a few times when he broke down and cried on the phone, so did I. We are in love with each other. Just that we were way too immature in handling r/s. A silent break happens den.
Two years had been long for me. I've been waiting. Waiting for a guy, a guy whom always waited for me at the staircase when things goes wrong. Always looking at that same old staircase hoping he will appear one day. When I'm alone, my mind is filled with him. Tears often appear at the corner of my eyes. Coincidentally, I got in the same school as him again. Always hoping that I will get to see him when I boarded the train.
After two years, his mum happened to ask my parents if we wanna go Gu Kok together. That when I met him once agn after so long. My heart skipped a beat when I see him. Pump so hard that I felt like collapsing (no exaggerating). We started talking from there, gone fishing together, got myself horribly burnt and we waited for the sunrise together. That was the first time in my life I saw a shooting stars. And is just the two of us that saw it.
We were back together once again.
We started off good. His parents treated me like his family and my mum doted him like son. We even gone diving together. Helping me carry tank, help me sort out the equipments and he always ensure that I'm safe. He would held me tight in his hands throughout the entire dive just to make sure I dont get drifted away.
With those loves.
I finally got my diving license.
And our Australia trip.
We are just an imperfect couples like anyone else. Whenever conflicts happen, we ended up running away from the problems instead of seating down and talking about how we could compromise one another. That was when things started to get sour as both our tolerance level dipped. I just snapped, got so tired. I gave up like totally, that I don't shed anymore tears.
I love you. Seriously I do.
I know you feel the same way too.
Through this period, I felt it.
You aren't different from the past. You always love me regardless of anything.I don't deny I'm at fault. There is so much misunderstanding in our last quarrel. Been together I should have known you. Known that you need my attention cause sometimes I tend to neglect you. I guess I would prefer to have someone who care so much about me than he don't.
You been on the sideline waiting for me.
Now I'm back to you again.
So now, we going to keep our compromise.
Never to let go again.
Never.
